How Does A Man Stay Humble and Protect His Ego at the Same Time? Or a Woman?
What a rush. Huzzah.
Hello everyone, I hope all are well.
I'm often in a good mood with bouts of doubt.
But I guess life is funny that way. Ha-ha or otherwise. Good thing too.
Anyway, I'm back old and bud, maybe even a bit wiser, though I'm fighting it tooth and nail.
How does a man stay humble and protect his ego at the same time? Or a woman? Is this important?
What used to make me irrationally happy is now making me irritable, or requests for attention from a man.
My manbition is up to more than this, but since this is some stuff I'm recently known for, might as well go for closure.
If you don't give a damn about this discursive, then by all means just drop it. I think it affects how people feel all day and night.
Many people are polite and/or friendly and that's perfectly fine. But when they throw each other off subtly I think many screw up chances to feel good.
That's on both ends, or the people who want attention and the people giving to them trading in relaxed, relaxing and respectful ways, or missing feeling good about it.
People see each other a lot, so this happening over and over and over again and people feeling less fulfilled by both how they look and what they say should consider considering their options.
It's more complicated than I often make it here, but that's because they complexities and nuances are best delivered to different audiences differently, or at least that's what I think would work the best...
Since I'm a poor excuse for a man trying to get rich, or sorry excuse for a man trying to apologize, or whatever and if anyone thinks I am, perhaps I should be more sorry and compassionate like everyone else and I'll work on it in foresight, not just in hindsight. I'm still in a bit of a bind with all the silence right along with everyone else. It's like we're all caught in the same net, except I feel like my legs are trapped in it while I'm dangling outside looking in and hanging out. Not all the time, but with more people saying hello in more nervous, pushy and spazzy ways it sure adds up. This is about what's been happening to people for nearly three years. Sorry this is back on the table, but it just may be reality to ignore or address like anything else of some or no importance. You can focus on the hurricane in the Philippines, football or whatever you want.
While I want to avoid my own social constipation and address this stuff straight like a man can to clarify things, though perhaps in a low-key way, though perhaps in a real conversation way, though perhaps in an off-hand allegorical way, or something like that. Under advisement I'm supposed to be more Woody Allen Weasel-like and practice polite and squirmy avoidance to minimize any cocktail of conflict, embarrassment, interest, and whatnot (to do). So, that's what I try to do which doesn't seem to make people happier, just less upset. On my end, or from my perspective, it can be nerve-wracking trying to deal with people acting silently pushy, spazzy or nervous. I can more easily ignore men who seem to realize they're selling unpalatable ninnying nonsense easier with many snapping out of it, or snapping into realizing they should snap out of it.
With women it's trickier since I can't really validate any doing this and they can't validate me either. This puts us in a bind. I find the interest flattering and so do they, unless it's not, or if they're bothering me for or with rubbish or vice versa. I really feel bad for them since I try not to see so many nervously twitching and spazzing and dropping their heads or freaking out when they want attention which isn't good for either of us, but that doesn't seem to work. My response to this has been savaged by a variety of factors, but one of the overwhelming ones has been the ego-destroying nature of the attention I casually trade. The days of respect and affection, or balls and chickstasy, are long-gone for the most part. Not that I'm crying or trying to get anyone else to, I'm just saying this chapter is either closed or I'm open open to support or suggestions.
Actually, who knows what's going to happen with this stuff, with people's interest, with or without my formal involvement and so on. I don't. I'll just say I'm moving on to other things with this in the blog or background as just something else that's happening filed away in the stuff going on that negatively affects everybody that nobody wants to talk about folder, which is probably too stuffed as it is. Life is good and it should be better, so as long as I know that I can focus on it instead. As far as my brand goes I have a hard time maintaining it and my legendary confidence when someone wants attention and I have to worry about what they're going to trick me into looking at, how to avoid it, being blamed for making someone freak out by looking at them when I didn't want to look at them freaking out, or being blamed for not-looking at freak-outs and so on.
Maybe you just want to file all this supposed nonsense under the "So you met some nervous people in the City, so what?" file. That's fine with you. Moving on then.
For others acting more non-verbally pushy, twitchy, spazzy and nervous while trying to be cute, just slow down, realize why you have to speed-up something, then stop doing it.
I suppose a perfunctory, or perfectly functional entreaty like "Please do whatever you want and I hope you feel good, just consider your options here..." would make sense to many as well.
Incidentally, a search and Blogger said my blog disappeared, but then I sent them my phone number after never giving it to Google whenever they ask and they quickly sent me a text saying:
+13177598474: Your Google verification code is 835606
So, now it seems to work. It's good to be back and bad and give you something that you never had, or this man who can speak freely when many don't and know it. So, what's next? This is the fun part.
Bonus: I guess this abstrusely came and went. Or not. Abstra-cadabra.
For fun and to understand people, sometimes I use music which can combine timeless truths, meaning and feeling while revealing what many people instinctively relate to. One example with some of how I choose to use it is the album "Nothing Was The Same" by Toronto artist Drake:
Note: while I use music to inspire me to feel many things, this interpretation is focused on male and female body language and empowerment.
"Tuscan Leather" reminds me I've taken a while to introduce myself. "Furthest Thing" speaks to my role in Toronto as someone imperfect thinking who many say hello to and seem to want something from. "Started From The Bottom" helps me try to connect with all the people saying hello.
"Wu-Tang Forever (It's Yours)" reminds me I'm a man who many women and girls flirt with, so I should be responsible. "Own It" means it's their choice. "Worst Behaviour" speaks to my faults hopefully not overshadowing my value. "From Time" helps me feel happy, proud and empathetic.
"Hold On, We're Going Home" reminds me of how men should relax and make sure that women and girls can have and be fun more often with confident, relaxed, relaxing and empowering grace and femininity. "Connect" speaks to casually flirting and connecting as normal for everyone.
"The Language" reminds me it can be hard to talk about masculinity and femininity in increasingly gender-neutral cultures, but if people privately talk to me, it could help produce options that help us relax. "305 to My City" speaks to how I feel I get what people want to believe in... people.
"Too Much" reminds me how we shouldn't make little things out of big things and big things out of little things and get scared to think, speak and act freely, or we shouldn't think about it too much. "Poundcake/Paris Morton Music 2" makes me want to be successful at making people happy.
Deluxe Edition: "Come Thru" reminds me of how much people can enjoy flirting when it's an empowering exchange of vulnerability for protective power to help everyone relax and feel better and how it would be shame to lose this. "All Me" speaks to how I'm actively concerned about this.
Other albums contributing to this thought process include Coldplay's "Mylo Xyloto" and "X & Y", Bob Marley and the Wailer's "Exodus", "The Best of Frank Sinatra", Guns'n'Roses' "Appetite for Destruction", K-OS' "Joyful Rebellion" and many others. We can discuss your faves too.
Drake - Furthest Thing
Somewhere between psychotic and iconic
Somewhere between I want it and I got it
Somewhere between I'm sober and I'm lifted
Somewhere between a mistress and commitment
But I stay down, girl I always stay down
Get down, never lay down
Promise to break everybody off before I break down
Everyone just wait now
So much on my plate now
People I believed in they don't even show they face now
What they got to say now?
Nothin' they can say now
Nothin' really changed but still they look at me a way now
What more can I say now?
What more can I say now?
You might feel like nothin' was the same
I still been drinkin' on the low
Mobbin' on the low
Fuckin' on the low
Smokin' on the low
I still been plottin' on the low
Schemin' on the low
The furthest thing from perfect
Like everyone I know
And I hate that you don't think I belong to ya
Just too busy runnin' shit to run home to ya
You know that paper my passion
Bittersweet celebrations, I know I can't change what happened
I can't help it
I can't help it
I was young and I was selfish
I made every woman feel like she was mine and no one else's
And now you hate me
Stop pretendin', stop that frontin'
I can't take it
Girl don't treat me like a stranger
Girl you know I seen ya naked
Girl you know that I remember, don't be a pretender
Gettin' high at the condo, that's when it all comes together
You know I stay reminiscing
And makeup sex is tradition
But you been missin' girl
And you might feel like nothin' was the same
Drinkin', smokin', fuckin', plottin', schemin'
Plottin', schemin', gettin' money
Drinkin', fuckin', smokin', plottin', schemin'
Plottin', schemin', gettin' money
This the life for me
My momma told me this was right for me
I got 'em worried, like make sure you save a slice for me
I should have Spoons serve you up with a fork and knife for me
Your actions make us doubt you
Your lack of effort got me rappin' different
This the shit I wanna go out to
Play this shit at my funeral if they catch me slippin'
Naked women swimmin', that's just how I'm livin'
Donate a million to some children, that's just how I'm feelin'
A nigga fillin' up arenas, who the fuck could see us?
I had to Derrick Rose the knee up before I got the re-up
Yours truly, the boy
I just build and build more
Y'all niggas build to destroy
Y'all niggas party too much, man, I just chill and record
No filler, you feel it now if you ain't feel it before
Yes Lord, this the shit I wanna go out to
This the shit I wanna go out to
- Drake, "Furthest Thing", Nothing Was The Same
Bonuser: Below is a great review of the new Drake tour on a great website, Grantland.com about sports, pop-culture and more. I don't want to spoil it, but give the style of writing a chance to charm you. I also don't mean to jock Drake more than I say since I don't know him, but to me he sounds like the Marvin Gaye of his generation. As a sort-of half-black and half-white (but actually brown) guy from Toronto raised mainly in those cultures with tons of girl interactions, problems, reactions and solutions, plus confused boys to hip to them who can get emotional about this stuff (me or them) and who's (sort-of) known by a lot of people who (sort-of) seem to want something, I can relate to the music for my own needs while also trying to understand his too if I feel like it. Hey, it's good to have options. Worrrd. Mazeltof. As for the review of the concert, as I say it's an excellent read in my humble but with just enough of a friendly ego to suggest it anyway opinion.
I mean really, click through to the link. Like many others on the site, I think this is one brilliantly funny and analytical piece of writingue, kudos to Mr. Pappademas for a brilliant job. IMHO, LOL, OMG, #review
We Went There: Drake's Would You Like a Tour? at Staples Center
By Alex Pappademas on November 27, 2013 12:30 PM ET
Monday night, Staples Center, Los Angeles, North America. Headliner is Aubrey Drake Graham, representative from Young Money/Cash Money/October's Very Own family of labels, and of north North America, specifically Toronto.